Saturday, July 7, 2012

Stay at home mom 25 years later...

Being a stay at home mom for around 25 years now, has taught me a lot of things. How to save money, how to wait for things I want and how to run on two hours of sleep for days. You mom's out there will know what I'm talking about.
What a I have not learned is who I have become in these last 25 years. When I was younger and had just graduated high school, I had a life plan. #1. No kids, #2. Never get married, #3. got to Europe and have my female parts removed. #4 graduate from college with a degree in either Marine Biology or Oceanography. Well 25 years later I can tell you with all honesty that I had every intention of following that life plan, but somehow I ended up: #1 getting married, #2 Having kids, #3 never has happened and #4 is no longer who I am. Don't get me wrong I have always taught my kids to love and respect the ocean and all life on this planet. I used to be an avid writer and drawer. I just recently began writing again and I picked up a pencil to draw for the first time in years about a month ago.
As my son's have grown up, I have as well, to a certain degree. Part of me still feels like I'm 18 and ready to take on the world. That little inner voice that says, "go ahead do a flip" and the other voice saying "You'll be sorry." So what does a stay at home mom do when she is in her mid 40's and her youngest child is about to leave the nest?  Do you continue to stay home and just pick up hobbies? Do you go back to school and follow a new dream? I have no clue. I think my first step will be finding out who I am. I need to get to know me and that isn't a simple thing to do after spending 25 years looking out for others and putting myself last.

So stay tuned as I embark on a journey to find out just who I am and what I want to do with my life. It's time for this stay at home mom to find her own path and follow it, just like my now grown son's are doing.